I’m wondering what other people think of as luxurious… 1200 thread count Egyptian cotton sheets? A beach vacation to Fiji? Decadent chocolate truffles?
After ten weeks of going without, last night I got to take a bath. And boy was it luxurious.
Submerging in water has been a no-no since the mastectomy and follow up surgery. I could have hugged Nurse ... Read More
I’m 40 years old and I feel like I’m going through menopause. Thanks cancer. More specifically, thanks Tamoxifen. The drug that will keep me from getting breast cancer again seems to have finally infiltrated my system.
I’m being melodramatic. It’s actually not that bad. There are a host of side-effects (like rashes, swelling, blistering, itchiness, yellow eyes, blood clots and ... Read More
Remember a few weeks ago when I just couldn’t find the right words for an upcoming presentation on kindness? Well, I found them. They may not have been perfect words, but they were words from the heart and honestly, these days, why bother with anything else?
Actually, I found enough words for TWO presentations this week!
On Tuesday, I shared my cancer ... Read More
I did it! I kept my feet moving in a fast-paced back and forth motion for 10 whole minutes!
If you don’t understand why this is a big deal, then you are clearly an elite athlete. Congratulations.
As I was driving to the running trail yesterday, my mind was at war. “What am I doing? This is dumb. I should ... Read More
Today I will run. That sounds like the title of a children’s book sitting on my shelf. Maybe it is. I’d get up and look, but then I would be giving in to procrastination. I have two big plans for the day: 1) writing in my cancer journal and 2) RUNNING!
I’m actually excited to see if I can do it. ... Read More
Dear 2233,
Do you mind if I call you that? I know your real name is Tamoxifen, but that seems kind of formal. And the numbers on you say 2233. Maybe I could call you 22 for short?
So 22, it sounds like we’re going to be together for a while, like maybe ten years, so I figured it’d be nice ... Read More
Have you ever needed something brilliant to say? Something that would perfectly express what sits so delicately, yet passionately, in the center of your heart?
I’m not supposed to be writing this blog right now. I’m supposed to be writing a 45 minute speech. I want it to be clever and interesting and motivating and make everyone fall over in ... Read More
What I could spend $1900 on:
542 gluten-free cupcakes
126 self-help books
40,500 Advil tablets
678 gallons of gas
7600 meals at the North Dakota food bank
What I will spend $1900 on:
The removal of 1 breast.
Saul and I actually had a lot of laughs last night talking about how rude it is that I would have to A) Fight cancer and B) Pay for ... Read More
It’s amazing how quickly things return to normal. I have a long to-do list today which includes enthralling activities such as: scheduling dental appointments, calling the insurance company, welcoming the dishwasher repairman, and waiting for new flooring to be delivered.
Sometimes I want to yell, “HEY! Doesn’t anybody around here remember how incredibly BRAVE I was this summer?” Actually, sometimes ... Read More
The night before we got the final pathology report, I laid in bed and prayed. “God, chemo or no chemo, whatever needs to be done, I accept it. I will trust in you and your plan for my life. But please, God, let me read to the kindergarteners this year. That’s all I want. Please just let me read to ... Read More
