Never window shop for something you have no intention of buying. In an effort to stop researching breast cancer on the internet (which makes me sad), I started researching cars (which produces no emotional reaction).

Wouldn’t you just know it? I fell in love with a 2004 Audi convertible in Cincinnati. It was too far away and too expensive, which made it just perfect for an online fling. But then things got real.

On Tuesday, my daughter and I left Athens in search of an Old Navy store. And there, sitting in the mall parking lot, was a 2004 Audi convertible with a big ole FOR SALE sign in the window. It was half the price of the one in Cincy and had fewer miles. I texted my husband a picture. He called and bought it for me. Gosh I love that man.

In the time between texting the picture and buying the car, I started to feel great guilt and condemnation… how many people could I feed for $4800? Won’t people think I’m showing off if I buy a convertible? If I write about it will I get hate mail? I don’t deserve a car like this.

Over coffee, a very wise friend offered another viewpoint. “You’re going through a lot, Nic. I understand how you’re feeling, but there is a time to be generous and a time to allow God and others to be generous to you. Buy the car.”FullSizeRender 2

So I did. And I love it.

I’ve been thinking about cutting my hair and dying it blond. Never look at hairstyles you have no intention of wearing…49DFDBA3799D7B19E5AC4686AD15DC41